Παρασκευή, 24 Ιουλίου 2009

promises..


29~5~08

peripou 1 mhnas exei perasei apo tote pou egrapsa teleftaia fora.. twra pou to skeftomai, nai, einai akrivws 1 mhnas! 29 apriliou 3ekinhsa teleftaia fora na grafw kati.. ligh wra af' otou efyge apo dw.. 3ekinhsa, nai.. ma pote den thn teleiwsa ekeinh th selida.. kapou sigoura perimenei ki afth ypomonetika th stigmh pou 8a ante3w na gyrisw pisw.. s' ekeino to apogevma, na 3ananiwsw opws eniwsa kai na thn oloklhrwsw.. den 3erw an 8a to kanw pote.. an 8a prolavw.. tosa exoun ginei apo tote.. sa filmaki e3elissetai mprosta sta matia mou h idia mou h zwh ki egw apla koitazw.. peftw sto krevati mou na skeftw ti egine thn prohgoumenh mera ki exei hdh ftasei h epomenh.. poso adiko gi' aftous pou pragmatika xreiazontai to xrono na mhn ton exoun.. einai periergh h zwh.. h zwh mou.. me8avrio teleiwnoun oi panellhnies.. Zeta mou, Kyriakh, Katerinaki h Rodos mas perimenei.. hdh oi 2 apo sas yposxe8hkate afto to kalokairi na einai kalytero apo to persino.. Myrtaki mou, epitelous.. 8a rizwsoume sth veranta mou me cheesecake kai laptop.. 8a 3anakerdisoume to xammeno xrono.. mhtso mou, 8a' maste elef8eres na trexoume h mia sthn allh opote yparxei provlhma, xwris na rwtame mamades kai mpampades.. 8a pame kai sto Carousel na vgaloume tis fwtografies pou legame! StaV, 8a kanonisoume epitelous ekeinh thn perivohth volta pou olo anavallame.. Giannh, piase stylo kai tetradio giati to' xes yposxe8ei.. exeis ena vivlio na grapseis.. mia istoria.. Dim kai KwN ftanei h wra gia tis ateleiwtes cry-nights (sigourh syntagh kai petyxhmenh) , Arh mou, 8a deis.. twra pou teleiwneis 8a deis poso dyskola einai ta pragmata.. poso pio dyskola 8a einai apo prin.. mhn 3exnas omws.. stis 23.. sto para8yro..

oloi eseis, oi dikoi mou an8rwpoi -pou efxaristw ka8e mera pou vre8hkate sto dromo mou- na 'ste kala.. kalh dynamh, twra arxizei h zwh.. htan dyskolh h xronia.. poly dyskolh makria sas.. apeires fores 8elhsa na parw thlefwno ka8enan apo sas.. na steilw ena mhnyma.. ametrhtes stigmes eniwsa oti sas exw anagkh.. epni3a thn epi8ymia mou.. gia prwth fora mphke panw ap' ola h logikh.. elpizw twra, h mallon apo twra ki epeita na exw ligo xrono me olous sas.. kapoious sas evlepa araia kai pou, allous elaxista kai orismenous ka8olou.. den mporw na pw poios mou eleipse perissotero.. den 3erw kan an yparxoun diava8miseis.. pantws o ka8enas gia to logo tou, ekane ais8hth thn apousia tou..

to kalokairi pou mpainei den 3erw an to h8ela.. an agwniousa gia thn afi3h tou.. isws to fovamai.. fovamai mhpws mazi tou, 3exasei na mou epistrepsei ta persina tou dwra.. kai 8a' nai kapws adiko, de nomizete? tosh anamonh, tosh ypomonh, toses selides grammenes, tosa tragoudia, tosh epimonh, tosos ponos, tosh siwph.. ma ta koritsakia mou, mou to yposxe8hkan.. den mporei loipon para na er8ei ki aftos.. oute katalava pws perase ki olas enas xronos.. 8a orkizomoun oti htan x8es afto to paraskeviatiko apogevma pou den h8ela me tipota na vgw ap' to spiti otan mou thlefwnhse h Myrtoula.. na' sai kala re Myrtaki pou me pieses.. skepsou poso alliws 8a htan ola an de me katafernes.. enas xronos, ENAS XRONOS.. koitazw ka8e prwi ton ka8refth kai to psi8yrizw ston eafto mou mhpws kai to pistepsw.. mhpws kai xwresei sto myalo mou olh afth h trela pou anti na thn apofevgw, parakalaw na mhn teleiwsei.. poso alla3a.. ta mallia mou makrynan.. den ta isiwnw pia sxedon pote.. to dwmatio mou den einai pia katafygio apo to diavasma h tous kourastikous goneis, alla keli anamnhsewn.. to skhniko apo thn wraioterh pra3h ths zwhs mou.. to xamogelo mou, afto pou kapoioi agaphsan kai alloi zhlepsan, spania vgainei alh8ino.. ontws, poso alla3a.. apo pote egw "ma8ainw na zw se mia sxesh" otan apla den mporw na exw afto pou me kanei pragmatika eftyxismenh? apo pote ypoxrewnw se symvivasmous thn kardia mou? ma den einai kai toso para3eno.. ema8a apla.. h pragmatikh agaph spania synantatai.. kai einai toso dynath pou sto telos den antexetai ki etsi.. ki etsi egw ki aftos "eimaste akoma mazi" ma eimaste xwria.. to "mazi" pote den epiviwnei sto praktiko tou epipedo s' aftes tis periptwseis-kai isws na' nai kalytera- (8ymasai sof ti sou' grapsa?).. ti kaneis loipon? ti eprepe na kanw? na synexisw.. e, to 3erw.. afto ekana.. exontas empedwsei oti kapoia pragmata MIA fora mporoun na symvoun -kai fysika ekei pou den to perimenoume, ekei pou eimaste sigouroi oti eimaste kala m' afto pou exoume- prospa8hsa na "xtisw" pali thn ka8hmerinothta mou periorizontas thn se mia sxesh "san oles".. den einai asxhmo.. apla.. kati mou leipei..

afto pou elpizw na vrw to kalokairi..

Kyriakh, 8ymhsou, to YPOSXE8HKES..

Δεν υπάρχουν σχόλια: