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(Prospa8w na 8ymh8w poso kairo exw na piasw sta xeria mou afto to tetradio.. poses fores mou hr8e kati sto myalo ma to prosperasa legontas oti den einai kai toso shmantiko gia na graftei.. skeftomai ti kalo mou exei prosferei h dhmosiefsh olwn aftwn twn proswpikwn mou shmeiwsewn kai synh8ws den katalhgw pou8ena.. kanw enagwnies prospa8eies na peisw ton eafto mou oti to kanw gia mena, gia na niwsw kalytera, gia na to moirastw.. endexomenws gia na kerdisw to 8avmasmo kapoiwn h akoma kai to xlevasmo kapoiwn allwn.. ma pisw ap' ola 3eprovalei panta epimonh, ews enoxlhntikh, h alh8eia.. ola afta genniountai mesa mou, grafontai kai dhmosievontai xarh se mia elpida.. sthn elpida pws akomh ta diavazeis.. sthn elpida oti afou e3antlhses tis perihghseis sou se oles aftes tis selides twn toso elkystikwn koritsiwn pou se anazhtoun, vare8hkes kai katelh3es na psaxneis sth dikh mou, th synh8ismenh kai koinotyph pia, gyrevontas kati pou de diavases, kati pou sou diefyge.. kapoia protasoula pou 8a se ekane na gelaseis.. ma den 3erw pia ti nohma exei h elpida afth.. den 3erw mhpws pia de sou perissevei xronos gia mena.. an prolavaineis na xa8eis stis le3eis twn allwn kratwntas ena teleftaio lepto gia na periplanh8eis sta gnwrima sou merh.. se merh pou katelh3an na 8ymizoun nekrotafeio agaphs.. giatieinai olofanero pws edw mesa ola einai afierwmena s' esena.. ka8e stixos, ka8e fwtografia, ka8e tragoudi pou akougetai, ka8e journal, ka8e wra pou asxoloumai me afthn edw th selida..

3erw, polloi 8a xarakthrisoun to keimeno afto adiaforo, anousio.. ma den 3eroun pws grafthke se mia poly dyskolh stigmh.. s' ena pentalepto adeio.. mias hmeras pou den 3ypnhsa thn wra pou 8a h8ela.. h mallon mias hmeras pou DE 8ELHSA na 3ypnhsw thn wra pou 8a h8ela.. shmera ezhsa thn prwth mou arnhsh.. to prwto mou "pas cap".. alh8eia dhmhtra, ti kerdizw? mh mou peis, loukoumi.. kai na er8w na to paralavw sth grammateia me thn taftothta mou..! ma akomh de vlepete oti den exw taftothta? oti mexri ki egw psaxnw poia eimai? eimai to aliCaki..! oxi, oxi.. den eimai to aliCaki.. eimai peripou to aliCaki.. peripou h "Αλίκη" (to misw afto).. eimai peripou erwtevmenh.. peripou zwntanh.. nai, agapaw entelws! gi' afto eimai sigourh.. oxi peripou sigourh, SIGOURH! Loipon olo afto sas parakalw na to eklavete ws mia terastia paren8esh sthn apoxh mou apo th syggrafh kai tipota parapanw.. san ton hxo mias anasas mesa sth siwph.. mhn to 8ewrhsete allo ena "dhmiourghma" mou giati 8a me adikhsete.. kyriws, sas eipa, grafw xarh sthn elpida.. kapou eixa pei pio palia oti h elpida den pe8ainei panta teleftaia -opws oloi nomizoun- ma ligo prin thn alh8eia.. to mono fainomenika analloiwto pragma.. alla ki afto mia psevdais8hsh einai.. akoma kai tis alh8eies o xronos tis kanei psemata.. ti mou menei loipon? ligo n' anasanw prin me ftasei o xronos.. prin me pni3oun oi alh8eies.. aftes oi idies pou kapote me kratousan zwntanh.. ma etsi ginetai me ola ta pragmata pou mas kanoun eftyxismenous.. einai ta mona pou mporoun na mas katadikasoun kai sthn pio sklhrh dystyxia.. afou panta h sklavia mas moiazei taftoxrona na einai kai h monh mas epilogh..) elpida. -ektos paren8esews-