Παρασκευή, 24 Ιουλίου 2009

θα με πηγαινες μια βολτα..?


3ereis kati? telika s' agapaw akomh perissotero ap' oso nomiza.. se noiazomai perissotero ap' oso nomiza.. kai to katalavainw oxi tis wres kai tis meres pou eimai makria sou, alla tis liges stigmes pou pername mazi.. ekeines tis wres pou niw8w na anapnew pragmatika.. vevaia kati stigmes san afthn edw twra, h apousia sou einai pragmatika anypoforh.. niw8w pali afth th syrriknwsh.. th dikh mou, tou dwmatiou, tou xronou.. to mono pou megalwnei tous teleftaious mhnes einai einai afto pou ais8anomai.. me fovizei.. pio poly omws fovamai to "epomeno lepto".. afto to toso da lepto mesa sto opoio mporei na alla3oun ola.. einai poly para3eno na niw8eis oti h zwh sou kremetai apo mia le3h tou allou.. apo ena xamogelo h apo to adiaforo vlemma tou.. ola ekei isorropoun.. sthn anamonh gia to "nai" h to "oxi".. kai perimeneis.. perimeneis.. perimeneis.. mesa sou dialyesai san kyvos zaxarenias agaphs s' ena flitzani dakrya.. dialyesai.. omws de milas.. kai de milas elpizontas sto akousma tou "nai".. aftou tou "nai" pou toso 8a se dikaiwsei.. toso sou a3izei.. elpizeis sthn epiviwsh tou mesa sto plh8os twn "oxi" pou fainontai pro8yma na se kataspara3oun.. na roufh3oun mexri kai thn teleftaia stagona zwhs pou pou exeis mesa sou.. to "oxi" san ekdoxh den antexeis na to skeftesai.. mono sthn ypopsia tou trelainesai.. skeftesai oti to sympa8htiko afto 18xrono koritsi kindynevei na metatrapei se ena plasma ka8hlwmeno xwris logo ypar3hs.. se 8livei to gegonos oti enw gnwrises toso kosmo, enw ezhses tosa polla, h zwh sou e3artatai apo enan mono an8rwpo.. sthn prospa8eia sou na krath8eis, na ante3eis mexri thn wra ths apofashs, xaneis akomh kai ton idio sou ton eafto.. den einai liges oi fores pou me syllamvanw sthn akrh tou krevatiou mou koulouriasmenh na tremw.. mou 8ymizw kati psyxika arrwstous se idrymata pou vlepoume stis tainies.. oso asteio ki an akougetai otan to niw8eis de gelas ka8olou.. araia kai pou erxontai kai oi gnwstoi "episkeptes".. oi parais8hseis.. pou nomizeis oti o allos ka8etai dipla sou.. pou aplwneis to xeri sou.. na aggi3eis ligo to xeri tou.. ta shmadia sto proswpo tou.. tentwnesai alla mataia.. den einai ekei.. gia pollosth fora arkeisai se mia xeirapsia me to keno.. kapoies stigmes skeftesai pws na' nai otan pe8aineis.. arage dialegeis pou phgaineis? dialegeis an 8ymasai h oxi? egw 8a h8ela na ginw aeras.. axrwmh, aosmh kai aylh.. na mporw na mpainw mesa tou xwris na to katalavainei.. isws aftos na einai kai o monos tropos na mhn mporei na zhsei xwris emena.. isws.. an ginw o aeras pou anapneei.. na tou eimai aparaithth..

Na' maste pali sthn ai8ousa anamonhs! agwnia.. kai to mono xeri pou mporeis na sfi3eis einai to diko sou.. giati opoia kai na' nai h apanthsh, eite eisai stous tyxerous tou "nai" eite stous katadikasmenous tou "oxi", monos sou 8a stekesai ki ekei.. kai posh dynamh na' xeis? 8a ante3eis sto pi8ano "oxi"? exeis apofasisei na mh rixneis pia vlemmata sto parel8on sou.. koitas loipon mprosta.. kai vlepeis tis giortes.. plhsiazoun.. pseftia pantou.. dh8en xara, dh8en stolidia, dh8en efxes, dh8en dwra, dh8en agaph.. h pragmatikh agaph stis giortes apousiazei.. h dikh mou toulaxiston.. akomh kai th stigmh pou o xronos aftos 8a ginetai allh mia selida tou parel8ontos, egw 8a zw mesa tou.. giati telika mono s' afton ezhsa.. htan 5 mhnes tou 2007 pou h alikh (aliCaki MONO GIA SENA) elampse.. agaphse, moirasthke, eklapse, ponese.. (den einai tyxaio to mege8os twn grammatwn pou xrhsimopoih8hke gia ka8e le3h).. den htan ki asxhma.. alloi den ta katafernoun pote.. menoun sa skonismenes lampes kleistes sto kouti tous.. e, enta3ei, toulaxiston den hmoun apo aftous.. kapoios me katevase apo to ntoulapi.. mou edwse stigmes apo fws.. kai otan exeis synh8isei na zeis sto skotadi, to fws tyflwnei arxika.. se kataklyzei.. de s' afhnei na deis.. ki ekei einai pou ginetai h dialogh.. an aftos pou sou xarizei to fws se afhsei meta mono sou na vreis to dromo, xanesai.. de vlepeis pou pas kai isws katalh3eis pali sto skotadi.. eftyxws egw den emeina monh ekeinh thn krisimh stigmh.. aftos pou mou prosefere to fws me ema8e kai na to xrhsimopoiw.. na to antexw.. ton parakalw loipon, twra pou pia ola deixnoun pws to fws mou einai aftos.. na mh me afhsei pote na skoteiniasw.. pote.. ki akoma ki an ypar3oun mikres stigmes apo skotadi, na einai ekei na mou krataei to xeri.. kai mazi 8a fwtisoume 3ana..

4 σχόλια:

An* είπε...

Τι όμορφα λόγια.
Ψυχή,όνειρα,ελπίδα,χαμόγελα.
Κυρίως το τελευταίο.
Έτσι πρέπει.
:)

Annε είπε...

Katagrafes psyxhs.einai yperoxo to keimeno..

Ανώνυμος είπε...

thanks for this awesome post

ταξίδεψε η καρδιά κι αυτό μου φτάνει.. είπε...

You re welcome...... :)