θα με πηγαινες μια βολτα..?

3ereis kati? telika s' agapaw akomh perissotero ap' oso nomiza.. se noiazomai perissotero ap' oso nomiza.. kai to katalavainw oxi tis wres kai tis meres pou eimai makria sou, alla tis liges stigmes pou pername mazi.. ekeines tis wres pou niw8w na anapnew pragmatika.. vevaia kati stigmes san afthn edw twra, h apousia sou einai pragmatika anypoforh.. niw8w pali afth th syrriknwsh.. th dikh mou, tou dwmatiou, tou xronou.. to mono pou megalwnei tous teleftaious mhnes einai einai afto pou ais8anomai.. me fovizei.. pio poly omws fovamai to "epomeno lepto".. afto to toso da lepto mesa sto opoio mporei na alla3oun ola.. einai poly para3eno na niw8eis oti h zwh sou kremetai apo mia le3h tou allou.. apo ena xamogelo h apo to adiaforo vlemma tou.. ola ekei isorropoun.. sthn anamonh gia to "nai" h to "oxi".. kai perimeneis.. perimeneis.. perimeneis.. mesa sou dialyesai san kyvos zaxarenias agaphs s' ena flitzani dakrya.. dialyesai.. omws de milas.. kai de milas elpizontas sto akousma tou "nai".. aftou tou "nai" pou toso 8a se dikaiwsei.. toso sou a3izei.. elpizeis sthn epiviwsh tou mesa sto plh8os twn "oxi" pou fainontai pro8yma na se kataspara3oun.. na roufh3oun mexri kai thn teleftaia stagona zwhs pou pou exeis mesa sou.. to "oxi" san ekdoxh den antexeis na to skeftesai.. mono sthn ypopsia tou trelainesai.. skeftesai oti to sympa8htiko afto 18xrono koritsi kindynevei na metatrapei se ena plasma ka8hlwmeno xwris logo ypar3hs.. se 8livei to gegonos oti enw gnwrises toso kosmo, enw ezhses tosa polla, h zwh sou e3artatai apo enan mono an8rwpo.. sthn prospa8eia sou na krath8eis, na ante3eis mexri thn wra ths apofashs, xaneis akomh kai ton idio sou ton eafto.. den einai liges oi fores pou me syllamvanw sthn akrh tou krevatiou mou koulouriasmenh na tremw.. mou 8ymizw kati psyxika arrwstous se idrymata pou vlepoume stis tainies.. oso asteio ki an akougetai otan to niw8eis de gelas ka8olou.. araia kai pou erxontai kai oi gnwstoi "episkeptes".. oi parais8hseis.. pou nomizeis oti o allos ka8etai dipla sou.. pou aplwneis to xeri sou.. na aggi3eis ligo to xeri tou.. ta shmadia sto proswpo tou.. tentwnesai alla mataia.. den einai ekei.. gia pollosth fora arkeisai se mia xeirapsia me to keno.. kapoies stigmes skeftesai pws na' nai otan pe8aineis.. arage dialegeis pou phgaineis? dialegeis an 8ymasai h oxi? egw 8a h8ela na ginw aeras.. axrwmh, aosmh kai aylh.. na mporw na mpainw mesa tou xwris na to katalavainei.. isws aftos na einai kai o monos tropos na mhn mporei na zhsei xwris emena.. isws.. an ginw o aeras pou anapneei.. na tou eimai aparaithth..

Na' maste pali sthn ai8ousa anamonhs! agwnia.. kai to mono xeri pou mporeis na sfi3eis einai to diko sou.. giati opoia kai na' nai h apanthsh, eite eisai stous tyxerous tou "nai" eite stous katadikasmenous tou "oxi", monos sou 8a stekesai ki ekei.. kai posh dynamh na' xeis? 8a ante3eis sto pi8ano "oxi"? exeis apofasisei na mh rixneis pia vlemmata sto parel8on sou.. koitas loipon mprosta.. kai vlepeis tis giortes.. plhsiazoun.. pseftia pantou.. dh8en xara, dh8en stolidia, dh8en efxes, dh8en dwra, dh8en agaph.. h pragmatikh agaph stis giortes apousiazei.. h dikh mou toulaxiston.. akomh kai th stigmh pou o xronos aftos 8a ginetai allh mia selida tou parel8ontos, egw 8a zw mesa tou.. giati telika mono s' afton ezhsa.. htan 5 mhnes tou 2007 pou h alikh (aliCaki MONO GIA SENA) elampse.. agaphse, moirasthke, eklapse, ponese.. (den einai tyxaio to mege8os twn grammatwn pou xrhsimopoih8hke gia ka8e le3h).. den htan ki asxhma.. alloi den ta katafernoun pote.. menoun sa skonismenes lampes kleistes sto kouti tous.. e, enta3ei, toulaxiston den hmoun apo aftous.. kapoios me katevase apo to ntoulapi.. mou edwse stigmes apo fws.. kai otan exeis synh8isei na zeis sto skotadi, to fws tyflwnei arxika.. se kataklyzei.. de s' afhnei na deis.. ki ekei einai pou ginetai h dialogh.. an aftos pou sou xarizei to fws se afhsei meta mono sou na vreis to dromo, xanesai.. de vlepeis pou pas kai isws katalh3eis pali sto skotadi.. eftyxws egw den emeina monh ekeinh thn krisimh stigmh.. aftos pou mou prosefere to fws me ema8e kai na to xrhsimopoiw.. na to antexw.. ton parakalw loipon, twra pou pia ola deixnoun pws to fws mou einai aftos.. na mh me afhsei pote na skoteiniasw.. pote.. ki akoma ki an ypar3oun mikres stigmes apo skotadi, na einai ekei na mou krataei to xeri.. kai mazi 8a fwtisoume 3ana..

μισώντας τις επιστροφές..

Lene pws panta h epistrofh einai pio efkolh apo thn anaxwrhsh.. otan efevga pragmati pisteva pws de 8a mporouse na ypar3ei kati dykolotero.. kati pio asxhmo apo to na fevgw kai na se afhnw pisw.. twra molis omws katalava oti perissotero me ponaei pou epistrefw.. sthn polh mou, sto spiti mou, s' esena.. typika de me perimeneis.. de gyrizw gia na se vrw "ekei".. 3erw pws kai na psa3w de 8a eisai..
Afth h epistrofh.... panta kryvei mesa ths mia mikrh epi8ymia e3afanishs, aiwnias anaxwrhshs.. kai panta thn agwnia an gyrizontas osa afhses pisw 8a ta vreis idia..
Proxwraei to treno..[kamia sxesh me emena..].. me fernei ekei.. den perpataw.. afto me fernei.. me fernoun.. akrivws opws me gyrnoun ola osa 8ymamai s' esena.. 3erw, apokleietai na vreis xrono gia thn tainia.. kai fysika epeidh den to 8es pragmatika.. Oxi, mhn apologeisai, se parakalw.. an apologh8eis gi' afto 8a prepei na apologh8eis kai gia ola osa 8elhses.. kai de 8a mporousa na to ante3w.. de 8a' 8ela na dikaiologh8eis gia afta pou h8eles kai ekanes.. giati tote 8a xreiastei na to kanw ki egw.. kai den exw dikaiologia.. kamia.. 3ereis, to mono pou 8a mporesw na pw ekeinh thn wra einai oti s' agapaw.. akou dikaiologia.. ti fthnh.. ti tipotenia..den pianei mia mprosta sto diavasma sou h sto xrono pou afierwneis s' afth kai epomenws "den prolavaineis" na me deis..
Molis perase o elegkths "ta eisithria sas parakalw" , "oriste" , "efxaristw despoinis, kalo ta3idi".. xaxa, "kalo ta3idi".. akou ti eipe.. "kalo ta3idi".. Den ta3idevw kyrie mou.. gyrizw.. opws panta allwste.. epistrefw s' afta pou me pono afhsa gia ligo.. epistrefw stis skepseis mou kai ston an8rwpo pou tis xeirizetai.. kai para to gegonos oti de 8a ton dw, synexizw na epistrefw.. tipota de dinei perissoterh sigouria apo th 8elhsh..
"Parakalw ta eisithria sas osoi epivivasthkate apo Katerinh".. na, afto mas eleipe twra.. kala, afto to parel8on de vare8hke na mou xtypaei synexeia thn porta? me xara syneidhtopoiw pws an kai o sta8mos mou einai gnwrimos de me diaperase kanenos eidous nostalgia gia tote.. pia de nostalgw tipota apo ekeinon, ton "prwto".. de mou leipei kati apo afton.. eipame, htan h proetoimasia.. to skalopati apo tous anwrimous "erwtes" sthn agaph.. megalwsa loipon.. "wrimasa".. kai ola afta xarh s ' esena.. s' esena pou gyrizontas 3erw pws de 8a vrw..isws na mhn peirazei kai toso..to lew kai niw8w na me pnigoun ta dakrya.. isws na mhn peirazei.. den prepei na peirazei..
Apoxairetw akoma enan sta8mo.. den 3erw poios einai.. de shkwsa ta matia mou na dw.. to katalava epeidh stamathse to treno.. 3ekinhsa na proxwrw pali.. vradiazei siga siga..8a ftasw ki ola 8a' nai skoteina.. 3ereis to treno pernaei kai katw apo mia gefyra konta sto spiti sou, to 8ymamai.. exw perasei apo ekei me to lewforeio.. mia tetarth.. gyrw stis 10:30 to prwi..
Fernw mazi mou kai ena mikro "dwraki".. apla gia na 8ymasai oti telika to ekana afto to ta3idi.. kaysterhmena isws, alla to ekana.. efyga apo thn a8hna prin 3 meres.. kai twra epistrefw me thn kardia mou pio adeia apo pote..8essalonikh-a8hna, ama3ostoixia No 503..nai, 3erw ti 8a peis.. "etyxe.."

μια φορα θυμαμαι μ' αγαπουσες, τωρα βροχη..

~ 30. 3. 08 ~

krywnw.. krywnw poly.. pou phges? krywnw.. den 3erw an me akous.. esy mia zwh synh8ismenos sto kryo hsoun.. krywnw.. ka8e vrady kai perissotero.. tremw pali.. exeis fygei.. agkaliazw ton eafto mou mhpws kai zesta8w ma exei pagwnia.. giati me afhses? giati panw pou phges na me shkwseis..? oute enas mhnas den exei perasei kala kala.. apo tote pou me diavevaiwnes pws tipota den exei alla3ei.. den 3erw an me akous ma dynamwse ligo ton hlio se parakalw.. steile mou ena kommati tou na to exw gia mena.. na to kleisw s' ena syrtari kai na to vgazw mono tis kryes nyxtes san ki afth.. niw8w ta daxtyla twn podiwn mou na moudiazoun.. fovamai na koita3w ston ka8refth giati den antexw na vlepw ta xeilh mou melaniasmena.. krywnw.. to katalavineis? pou phges? pws kataferes na vgeis apo ekei pou se eixa krypsei? pws? pou gyrizeis twra kai pote den epistrefeis? xa8hkes.. se phre h lh8h.. eipes de 8a synevaine pote.. pes mou, me kratas akoma zwntanh? krywnw.. esy, o an8rwpos mou, AKOU ME.. NIWSE ME.. OSO MAKRIA KI AN EISAI..SE OPOION OURANO KI AN PETAS.. KOITA LIGO PISW.. m' afhses sth mesh tou dromou.. ki exei kryo.. poly kryo edw.. isws panta na htan etsi kai na mhn to katalavaina.. se parakalw.. piase mou to xeri.. einai toso tsouxtero pou me trypaei.. ftanei ws thn kardia mou.. thn pagwnei siga siga.. thn e3oudeterwnei.. ma ekei se kratw.. mesa s' afto to "diamanti pou exw sto sth8os mou" opws eixes pei.. ma exei 8olwsei apo to kryo.. apo to diaperastiko aera.. th niw8w.. xtypaei pio arga.. prosarmosthke.. ma panta krataei ena ry8mo.. mia glykia monotonia pou m' afhnei akomh na zw para to kryo.. ma afto einai to xeirotero.. na mhn pe8ainw.. na mh m' afhneis na fygw.. na "3ekourastw".. den einai o swstos tropos,eipes.. ma twra ponaw perissotero.. ta xeria mou exoun plhgiasei ap' to kryo.. ta kokkala mou de lygizoun.. ta podia mou den mporoun na kanoun vhma xwris esena.. krywnw.. toso pou pote mou den krywna.. oute tote, me ta xionia pou toso poly me fovizan.. omws les kai h fwnh mou svhnei ston aera.. de m' akous.. de me niw8eis pou krywnw.. oi le3eis mou de ftanoun ws ekei.. ws ekei pou vrhkes ton paradeiso sou..

promises..

29~5~08

peripou 1 mhnas exei perasei apo tote pou egrapsa teleftaia fora.. twra pou to skeftomai, nai, einai akrivws 1 mhnas! 29 apriliou 3ekinhsa teleftaia fora na grafw kati.. ligh wra af' otou efyge apo dw.. 3ekinhsa, nai.. ma pote den thn teleiwsa ekeinh th selida.. kapou sigoura perimenei ki afth ypomonetika th stigmh pou 8a ante3w na gyrisw pisw.. s' ekeino to apogevma, na 3ananiwsw opws eniwsa kai na thn oloklhrwsw.. den 3erw an 8a to kanw pote.. an 8a prolavw.. tosa exoun ginei apo tote.. sa filmaki e3elissetai mprosta sta matia mou h idia mou h zwh ki egw apla koitazw.. peftw sto krevati mou na skeftw ti egine thn prohgoumenh mera ki exei hdh ftasei h epomenh.. poso adiko gi' aftous pou pragmatika xreiazontai to xrono na mhn ton exoun.. einai periergh h zwh.. h zwh mou.. me8avrio teleiwnoun oi panellhnies.. Zeta mou, Kyriakh, Katerinaki h Rodos mas perimenei.. hdh oi 2 apo sas yposxe8hkate afto to kalokairi na einai kalytero apo to persino.. Myrtaki mou, epitelous.. 8a rizwsoume sth veranta mou me cheesecake kai laptop.. 8a 3anakerdisoume to xammeno xrono.. mhtso mou, 8a' maste elef8eres na trexoume h mia sthn allh opote yparxei provlhma, xwris na rwtame mamades kai mpampades.. 8a pame kai sto Carousel na vgaloume tis fwtografies pou legame! StaV, 8a kanonisoume epitelous ekeinh thn perivohth volta pou olo anavallame.. Giannh, piase stylo kai tetradio giati to' xes yposxe8ei.. exeis ena vivlio na grapseis.. mia istoria.. Dim kai KwN ftanei h wra gia tis ateleiwtes cry-nights (sigourh syntagh kai petyxhmenh) , Arh mou, 8a deis.. twra pou teleiwneis 8a deis poso dyskola einai ta pragmata.. poso pio dyskola 8a einai apo prin.. mhn 3exnas omws.. stis 23.. sto para8yro..

oloi eseis, oi dikoi mou an8rwpoi -pou efxaristw ka8e mera pou vre8hkate sto dromo mou- na 'ste kala.. kalh dynamh, twra arxizei h zwh.. htan dyskolh h xronia.. poly dyskolh makria sas.. apeires fores 8elhsa na parw thlefwno ka8enan apo sas.. na steilw ena mhnyma.. ametrhtes stigmes eniwsa oti sas exw anagkh.. epni3a thn epi8ymia mou.. gia prwth fora mphke panw ap' ola h logikh.. elpizw twra, h mallon apo twra ki epeita na exw ligo xrono me olous sas.. kapoious sas evlepa araia kai pou, allous elaxista kai orismenous ka8olou.. den mporw na pw poios mou eleipse perissotero.. den 3erw kan an yparxoun diava8miseis.. pantws o ka8enas gia to logo tou, ekane ais8hth thn apousia tou..

to kalokairi pou mpainei den 3erw an to h8ela.. an agwniousa gia thn afi3h tou.. isws to fovamai.. fovamai mhpws mazi tou, 3exasei na mou epistrepsei ta persina tou dwra.. kai 8a' nai kapws adiko, de nomizete? tosh anamonh, tosh ypomonh, toses selides grammenes, tosa tragoudia, tosh epimonh, tosos ponos, tosh siwph.. ma ta koritsakia mou, mou to yposxe8hkan.. den mporei loipon para na er8ei ki aftos.. oute katalava pws perase ki olas enas xronos.. 8a orkizomoun oti htan x8es afto to paraskeviatiko apogevma pou den h8ela me tipota na vgw ap' to spiti otan mou thlefwnhse h Myrtoula.. na' sai kala re Myrtaki pou me pieses.. skepsou poso alliws 8a htan ola an de me katafernes.. enas xronos, ENAS XRONOS.. koitazw ka8e prwi ton ka8refth kai to psi8yrizw ston eafto mou mhpws kai to pistepsw.. mhpws kai xwresei sto myalo mou olh afth h trela pou anti na thn apofevgw, parakalaw na mhn teleiwsei.. poso alla3a.. ta mallia mou makrynan.. den ta isiwnw pia sxedon pote.. to dwmatio mou den einai pia katafygio apo to diavasma h tous kourastikous goneis, alla keli anamnhsewn.. to skhniko apo thn wraioterh pra3h ths zwhs mou.. to xamogelo mou, afto pou kapoioi agaphsan kai alloi zhlepsan, spania vgainei alh8ino.. ontws, poso alla3a.. apo pote egw "ma8ainw na zw se mia sxesh" otan apla den mporw na exw afto pou me kanei pragmatika eftyxismenh? apo pote ypoxrewnw se symvivasmous thn kardia mou? ma den einai kai toso para3eno.. ema8a apla.. h pragmatikh agaph spania synantatai.. kai einai toso dynath pou sto telos den antexetai ki etsi.. ki etsi egw ki aftos "eimaste akoma mazi" ma eimaste xwria.. to "mazi" pote den epiviwnei sto praktiko tou epipedo s' aftes tis periptwseis-kai isws na' nai kalytera- (8ymasai sof ti sou' grapsa?).. ti kaneis loipon? ti eprepe na kanw? na synexisw.. e, to 3erw.. afto ekana.. exontas empedwsei oti kapoia pragmata MIA fora mporoun na symvoun -kai fysika ekei pou den to perimenoume, ekei pou eimaste sigouroi oti eimaste kala m' afto pou exoume- prospa8hsa na "xtisw" pali thn ka8hmerinothta mou periorizontas thn se mia sxesh "san oles".. den einai asxhmo.. apla.. kati mou leipei..

afto pou elpizw na vrw to kalokairi..

Kyriakh, 8ymhsou, to YPOSXE8HKES..

κα9ε φορα..

23:45

σε 15 λεπτα η μερα αλλαζει.. γινεται 23 ιουνιου.. κ ακομα κ αν με παρεισ τηλ..

αν μου ζητησεισ να ερ8ω μαζι σου καπου.. ακομα κ αν στην αρχη αρνη8ω κ μετα

καταφερεισ να με πεισεισ.. τιποτα δε 8α 'ναι οπωσ τοτε.. ποτε 3ανα το πεζουλακι

του παρα8υρου δε 8α νιωσει να το βαραινει τετοια ευ8υνη.. η ευ8υνη για ολη

αυτη την αρρωστη ιστορια που τελειωνει τοσο αδο3α.. κ ομωσ, εκρυβε μεσα τοσα

απο8εματα μανιακησ -σχεδον- αγαπησ, ικανα να κρατησουν για παντα.. ακομη κ

αν καποια στιγμη σβησει απ' τη μνημη σου η λαμψη του βλεμματοσ μου τη στιγμη

που τον ειδα, να 8υμασαι πωσ εγω, τουλαχιστον μια φορα το χρονο (κα8ε 23

ιουνιου) 8α σε σκεφτομαι οσο μακρια κι αν εισαι.. και 8α σ' ευχαριστω που το

εζησεσ διπλα μου.. που το ζησαμε μαζι..

ΣΤΗ ΜΥΡΤΩ

να που τελικα η αγαπη που προστατεψα εγινε θηλια..

kai kapws etsi teleiwnoun ola.. kapws etsi kleinei o kyklos mias istorias pou nomiza pws 8a kratouse gia panta.. 8a antexe sto xrono.. mias istorias pou "8a ginotan my8istorhma kai 8a espage ta tameia" .. akougetai asteio e? nai, dikio exete.. kapote den htan omws.. kapote agwniousa toso gia to ti 8a mou eferne h epomenh mera pou 3exnousa pws einai na gelas..

htan mia tyxaia gnwrimia.. pio tyxaia de ginetai.. ews kai anapantexh.. ypologismenh omws.. "grafto" opws synh8ize na thn apokalei ki ekeinos.. prwta gnwrisa afton.. to "antikeimeno tou po8ou" mou.. mia parousia xartinh, hmidiafanh sxedon.. ma toso alh8inh, toso elkystikh.. ystera emfanisthkan oi filoi tou.. "filoi".. den mporw na pw me sigouria.. oi misoi ton zhlevoun.. tous allous misous tous zhlevei ekeinos gia tis alh8eies pou mporoun na lene enw o idios oxi.. ligo kairo meta, afth.. figoura entelws aylh.. skiagrafhmenh opws ta 8ymata stis tainies.. eirwnikh hrwida ma kai toso "dh8en afelhs".. e8elotyflouse.. me enan phgaio, asthrefto egwismo.. mia asteia kai outopikh 8elhsh na mh xasei ton xammeno "titlo".. polemistria se mia anish maxh "sthmenh" apo thn arxh enantion ths.. isws vevaia na mhn htan toso "8yma".. isws ola na ta' 3ere kai na diaskedaze.. den mporw na pistepsw oti den evlepe.. ena nhsi, h apostash, o xronos.. ligoi mono akoma apo tous prwtagwnistes afths ths tragelafikhs kwmwdias.. kaneis de 8a mporesei pote na niwsei poso agaphsa.. poso xariza ton eafto mou mesa apo ka8e lepto dipla tou.. kaneis, ki afto giati "den yparxoun alloi na pianoun ton eafto tous sthn akrh tou krevatiou na tremei parea me tis parais8hseis" opws eipe kapote mia filh.. 3erete poia filh? afth pou twra einai mazi tou.. thn agaphsa ki ekeinh.. prin.. prin ap' ola.. ki oso ki an to prospa8hsei.. de 8a kataferei na niwsei opws egw.. den einai h wra ths akoma.. kaneis loipon de 8a ais8an8ei pote ton pono pou me vasanize molis epefta sto krevati 3erontas pws h de 8a koimh8w h 8a mpainovgainoun shmeia kai terata sta oneira mou.. ta dakrya pou eri3a 8a eftanan gia na gemissoun tis kardies olwn -an eixan vevaia..

teleiwse loipon.. etsi.. ado3a.. mounta.. adiafora.. adika gia mena.. afhnontas yponnoies gia thn akeraiothta mou, ena apo ta xeirotera pragmata.. ma to orkizomai.. to orkizomai se osous pistepsan mazi mou s' afto to paramy8i.. se ka8e enan pou etyxe na diavasei kapoia protash mou kai na anatrixiasei.. de 8a elegα pote psemata.. 3erete.. me pnigei to dikio mou.. toso pou oute na anapnefsw mporw.. oute na klapsw.. na stenaxwrh8w gi' afto pou efyge.. kai twra den mporei kaneis na pei tipota.. giati afth h "e3omologhsh" grafetai se ena xarti pou de 8a pesei sta xeria tous.. kai 8a perastei se mia selida apo thn opoia exoun apokleistei.. kai aftos kai oloi oi "dikoi tou".. oi symmaxoi tou pou toso adika epai3an panw sth dikh mou plath.. an ema8a kati? oxi.. telika tipota.. kaneis den a3izei na einai "daskalos" an adynatei na thrhsei tis idies tou tis 8ewries.. kai sto telos, oute enas apo aftous den to ekane..

xairomai gia mena omws.. xairomai giati syneidhtopoiw oti ena xrono mesa stis anatropes kai ta anapantexa gegonota.. ena xrono vy8ismenh stis pio treles symptwseis, den alla3a.. akomh kai twra -exontas zhsei afth thn arrwsth istoria- 8a to 3anaekana.. mh gelieste! oxi me ton idio an8rwpo! aftos pe8ane.. 8a riskara omws pali na agaphsw toso.. gnwrizontas fysika oti kindynevw na 3anaponesw..

mesa se olous osous afhnw yparxoun 1-2 pou den to a3izoun, pou apla "tous phre h mpala".. alverto, odyssea, akh, vera -an kai de 8a to diavasete- zhtw syggnwmh.. an kai de xanete tipota.. sto katw-katw symfwna me tous an8rwpous sas egw yphr3a tsoula, antroxwristra, prodoths, pseftra......... opote mallon kai se esas 8a thn eferna kapoia stigmh.. par' ol' afta sas efxaristw giati eite gnwrizate ka8e leptomereia ths istorias, eite to kentriko ths 8ema, hsaste ekei.. me akougate..

kleinw, loipon, thn porta pisw mou, ermhtika.. to kleidi to petaw.. toso makria, na mh dw oute pοu 8a pesei.. den gyrizw 3ana pisw.. fevgw misostraggalismenh apo to dikio mou pou panta 8a me pnigei.. lypamai pou mexri kai thn teleftaia stigmh prin kleisw thn porta, apo th mikrh xaramada evlepa an8rwpous na peftoun sta matia mou.. na peftoun toso xamhla pou pros stigmhn na skeftomai na 3anaanoi3w gia na tous vοh8hsw na shkw8oun.. ma vare8hka na aplwnw to xeri s' aftous pou telika h 8esh tous einai ontws xamhla.. vare8hka na swzw an8rwpous apo ton e3eftelismo, otan aftos tous a3izei (kai ton epidiwkoun me ka8e tropo).. giati to apotelesma htan ka8e fora na peftw ki egw mazi tous.. kai kaneis na mhn mpainei se diadikasia na shkwsei emena..

ftanei loipon.. kapoiwn h 8esh einai ston ourano.. kapoiwn sth gh kai kai orismenwn katw apo afthn.. mporei na mhn yphr3a pote mou "aggelos" opws alloi.. pantws sigoura den epra3a kati toso asxhmo wste na mou armozoun ta egkata ths ghs sta opoia merikoi viasthkan na me ri3oun.. vriskomai sth gh -ekei pou pistevw pws patousa panta.. ekana la8h -ma panta enantia ston eafto mou.. gia ekeinous edina panta to kalytero.. kai aftoi gia "efxaristw" ypegrapsan megaloprepws to telos tou vivliou mou.. ekeinou tou vivliou pou ligo poly oloi mou oi filoi me parakalousan na grapsw.. "gia na' xei o kosmos na diavazei istories akraies ma alh8ines".. "gia na ma8oun oi an8rwpoi pws afta de ginontai mono stis tainies".. wraia, ki an to ma8ainan ti 8a ginotan? tipota.. den to ezhsan.. den eniwsan oute stigmh opws egw.. afhste to loipon.. as meinoun apla shmeiwseis sto tetradio mou.. na 8ymaste mono oti to telos de dw8hke apo mena.. den epediw3a egw na navaghsei to "happy end" pou oloi perimenate.. pou oloi mou yposxosastan (ti afeleis pou eiste wres-wres).. the show is over, close the storybook..

νεραϊδόσκονες..

kata kairous h8ela na grapsw ena keimeno, mia paragrafo, mia protasoula, kati telos pantwn gia na pw ena megalo "EFXARISTW" se enan an8rwpo pou me exei voh8hsei para poly-isws perissotero apo ka8e allon-, se enan an8rwpo pou an kai 8a elege kapoios tritos oti oi dromoi mas apexoun xiliometra, me kanei na xairomai to ka8e lepto pou 8a tyxei na vre8oume sto stavrodromi.. se mia gynaika pou enw exei sxedon thn hlikia ths mamas mou vrisketai pio konta mou ki ap thn kalyterh mou filh se polla 8emata.. thn agapaw giati pote de mou xaidepse ta aftia, giati me ema8e ti shmainei apomy8opoihsh, giati en telei einai "ekei" akoma ki otan apousiazei.. sygkatalegetai sigoura mesa stous kalyterous an8rwpous pou exw gnwrisei kai gia osous 8a viastoun na poun oti ola afta ofeilontai sto onoma ths kai mono exw na pw oti oi pragmatikoi mou filoi 3eroun poly kala posos polys kairos exei perasei apo tote pou epapse na me endiaferei afto.. gia osous den katalavainoun apla LYPAMAI, den mporw na kanw kati.. egw ki afth exoume perasei pia sto "2o epipedo" opws to apokalei ekeinh.. de nomizw pote na kataferw na ths milhsw ston eniko kai 3erw poso th 8ymwnei afto alla......... de me noiazei! o plh8yntikos mou den einai plh8yntikos evgeneias, einai plh8yntikos sevasmou -apo tous ligous eilikrineis plh8yntikous- giati mou exei prosferei apistefta pragmata kai kyriws apistefth synais8hmatikh eveli3ia kai gnwsh.. gia ola afta kai gia alla tosa pou de 8a anaferw kai pou kaneis de 8a katalavaine outws h allws (giati an den to zhseis de ginetai..) ekatsa kai egrapsa afto to mikro shmeiwma.. kai me aformh fysika th stigmh ekeinh ths shmerinhs synavlias pou mprosta se 50.000 kosmo, sth mesh tou tragoudiou, fwna3es to onoma mou kai me koita3es ap th skhnh xamogelwntas.. gia ola afta, loipon, glykia mou neraida sas efxaristw aperanta..

panta dikh sas..

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